Ericaduncan's Journals

self medicated

^{I Dont know whats wrong with me?!}

^{i never cry because of you never! and i dont know why?}

^{its not normal and i Hate it! i fucking hate it chris!}

^{its not normal why cant i cry? i cant cry. i thought that}

^{i would be crying all the time and im not. and its not like i dont love you or anything or blah}

^{i just feel like im dried up or something. i hate this. and i cant stand not having you there to talk to when i cant sleep like right now. i cant sleep honey its fucking 1:04 and i woke up at 7 this morning up all day and i cleaned the entire kitchen. i think im just going to go take some pills to go to sleep. they will help alot. i just might be missing you and this is how i deal with it? i dont know and i cant stand it.}

^{i love you chris. i hate the feeling of not having you here or the feling of knowing that i cant talk to you}

^{i guess i will talk to you in a long time...}

yup

Im in love with my cousin :)

lol

i really do love him tho

he is an asshole but i love it! well not really but even tho he is an asshole i still love him

well i know we both know im a bitch and i let everything out on him. which isnt a good thing and i feel really bad for it and i dont mean toget mad at him i just stress out and get really pissed off at him. even tho he did nothing wrong. lol

i love you christopher :)

Mwah! :):):):):):)

i memeber when u got this and i didnt know who u wer lol and u were trying to talk to me and i ignored you! ::) LMAO! i was like who the hell is this?! then i remembered lol

i love you lol

i dont know.....

im so pissed off about alot of things right now
like my best friend leaving to L.A. without saying bye
or even telling me that he was going to L.A.
and testing on animals
have you ever seen a monkey wear eyeliner?
yea i think not
so why do they test it on them?!
oh and those stupid bitches who wear fur!
i hope they all burn in hell for having an animal killed just to get their fur
im also really mad that Chris isn't here
i miss him so freaking much
i love him more than anything in this world
and i hate myself for cheating on him....TWICE!
after i told him i wouldn't do it again
it happened again.

i love you chris
you mean everything to me
im sorry for what i did....twice
i will never forgive myself

fuck this bullshit!

why the hell cant i find any real friends anymore
all they do is lie and make shit up
fuck all of them i dont need them
they can all burn in hell
especially joey and Andrea!
i hate you two!
FUCK YOU!!
if you really love her tell her the truth.....